There’s something strange happening over here.
People (others—and me) are used to my energy. I’m a connector of concepts and insights, and I tend to quickly weave those things into unique offerings—workshops and groups. So it’s been… weird.
Nothing from Renee.
I have a couple of people who regularly check in.
“You’re not ready yet? You don’t know where this is leading you yet?”
No.
Because this rhythm is so different for me, I could easily slip into believing it really is “nothing.”
But it isn’t.
At the beginning of the year, I told myself I was taking the first quarter to find a new rhythm. It’s going quickly.
January was dedicated to wrapping up system transfers before releasing my virtual assistant. That took more time than I anticipated. I also tried to match my husband’s schedule for his days off, which disrupted my ability to get anything extra done. I ended up feeling behind on my annual plan.
Then, at the end of January, he retired.
Almost immediately, we had a surprise need for our time and presence. It was lovely to meet that moment with the grace, ease, and love it required. There was no scrambling—just showing up for someone we care about.
This required some systems I had not yet created. It was necessary and we learned.
Now I’m realizing that training my husband into a role in my businesses is its own substantial project. I’ve trained assistants before, but somehow I forgot it would take real time and energy to get him up to speed. I think some part of me assumed that because he’s listened to me talk about the business for years, he already knew the systems. (Silly rabbit, that is not how this works.)
So far, I haven’t had the spacious exhale I imagined. I haven’t fully found my sea legs—remember, the goal is ease while moving the business forward with greater focus.
And yet, so much is getting done—INCLUDING the ease.
I know. Weird, right?
The systems are transferred. We showed up for family. Training is underway. I’ve been tackling household and business details in “backlog sprints.” I’m sleeping later and taking in more yoga and movement. I’m weaving in more self-care. I’m celebrating the developing “just-right touch” of parenting young adults—and I’m thrilled watching them thrive.
Professionally, I’ve stepped fully into becoming a consultant-in-training in EMDR. I launched a book club for clinicians who’ve completed basic training. My somatic EMDR intensive sessions are expanding, and it’s been powerful to watch people experience meaningful change in relatively short periods of time—alternating between bilateral stimulation and movement in the room as integral parts of the process.
Quite soon, I’ll be adding an invitation-only personal growth and wellness conversation group.
And the next thing I’m contemplating—waiting for clarity and the right launch point—is a coaching group experience.
Jan and I have been talking about a creativity, coaching, and embodiment group that’s been received well in her practice. The idea is simple: people gather with creative projects they care about, with built-in weekly coaching and group support alongside that work. This provides time to focus & space to think while growing community.
All of it fits with my vision of deeper connections that tap into our shared humanity.
So no—I don’t know exactly where this is leading.
I wouldn’t yet dare to name that yet.
But I do know this season isn’t empty.
If you’re in a season of “not yet,” I hope you’re letting it be real. More is happening under the surface than you can see. If we don’t pause to reflect and notice it, it gets folded into the blur of life and mislabeled as lost time—when it is, in fact, life itself.
I’m not waiting for the next phase of life to begin.
I’m living it now.